update.
for reall :)

once upon a time that girl looked at those "older kids" and said that'll never be me.
and now she's starting to like one of those big kids. and he's gonna leave. it took long enough, didn't it?

everything about breaking hearts,
i learned from you
you know, stringing people along?
telling them you like them..
but saying "i cant be in a relationship"
all because there was someone else on the side..
yeah, i learned it all from you kid
(me)

I dont want to lose you babe
which is funny because youre not even mine
(me)

& then there are just some things, you cant explain
like why that boy wont give you that chance..
but then when she comes along, its a different story </3
(me)

Maybe I don't want this night to end.
And maybe I don't want you to stop thinking about me,
and start thinking about her.

He finds another way to be the highlight of my day.
I'm taking pictures in my mind, so I can save them for a snow day.
it's hard to make conversation..when he's taking my breath away.

The days are getting warmer, Summer is getting nearer.
I find myself lost in this song, and even more lost in your eyes.

shut the window, love.
keep the world outside.
i don't want to think about anyone but you.

You make me happier than I ever thought I could be.
and if you let me, i will spend the rest of my life trying to
make you feel the same way.

I was looking out the car window today 
and I realized I'm starting to miss you alot again.
It's funny how out of nowhere you came to mind.
The truth is, I wish you were here again.

Why obsess over what makes you upset
when there is so much to be learned, so much energy, so much life.

i just wanted to thank you,
for calling me back when i hung up on you.
and for grabbing my arm when i started to walk away.
but now i'm ready to let go. so let me run off.
and leave your fingers off those telephone buttons.
its over for good this time.

"It's not that I believe everything happens for a reason," she said.
"It's just that..I think that some things are meant to be broken.
Imperfect. Chaotic. It's the universes way of providing contrast,
you know? There has to be a few holes in the road. It's how life is."
--The Truth About Forever.

I'm crazy over you,
I'm not sure what I would do without you,
I'm always thinking about you,
but the worst part is,
you have no idea how I feel,
and what you mean to me

The biggest mistake you can make
is to drift apart from someone
who you once had the time of your life with.

Why did I ever think I was worth it

Worth the hassle, the heartache, hell, worth your time.

I'm nothing but a screw up and that's all I'll ever be

I was stupid to think I could change who I am or what I am.

it's getting colder, and you're
getting distant and I just keep
thinking, I never meant it to
be like this.

Love's a strong word but i know
i mean it.

it's lovely that you got all fucked up
and you don't know where you have been.
are you lonely or just fed up with the
shape you keep finding yourself in?

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so i never finished that last update
oh well.
..omg it was so nice out today
i cant wait for the summerr :)
well here youu go<333333

Well, I'm singing this song as loud as I can
as I drive too fast with my best friend.
I don't wonder if you're wondering where I am
'Cause I don't care if I ever see you again.

Look out, they're coming after us
They're only going to tell you the bad things that I've done
even if the things that they say aren't true they've won
& I'm left dying in the sun.

A thousand miles seems pretty far
but they've got planes and trains and cars
I'd walk to you if I had no other way
Our friends would all make fun of us
& we'll just laugh along
because we know that none of them have felt this way

Myabe I could have loved you better.
Maybe you should have loved me more.
Maybe our hearts were next in line.
Maybe everything breaks sometimes.

You have beautiful, beautiful eyes, so bright & alive & enchanting.
I want to be with you all of the time
it's hopeless, but I have to try.

See once in a while, once in a blue moon, people will surprise you ,
and once in a while people may even take your breath away.

We all live in this world.
And girls have such hard pressure
to be "perfect", to have sex,
be skinny, and be gorgeous all at the same time.

Saw your face. The other day.
And I'd wished I'd had the guts enough to say,
Wish you could spend the night
And it would be like old times.

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Update :) :)
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I don't know what love is. I've never been in it, to tell you the truth.
But I've thought I have been, but I guess that's it. If you have to wonder if it's the real deal, then it's not.

if you've been hiding from love and I can understand where you're coming from
if you've suffered enough I can understand why you refuse to hurt more.

I don't know. I guess I feel different. Like I've always had this tendency to assume that change,
when it happens, can only be for the worse. You know? And lately, I kinda feel like that's not true.
like whatever's waiting for me out there, may not be that bad. And even if it is,
then not knowing about it might actually be the good part. -Dawson’s Creek.

I don’t wait by the phone like I used to. I don’t hope for kind words you might say.
You don’t prey on my mind like you used to, but you can still ruin my day.

my computer is being gay.
so i'll finish this later.
<3

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tgif :)
update</3

the only two boys i ever loved,
let me down.
they lied, they cheated
they broke my heart
but you know whats funny?
id give anything to be with either one of them .. </3
(me)

I havent cried in awhile
but I am now
and you want to know why?
because im in love with you..
but you dont give a damn about me
(me)

Im reading that note you gave me
you know, the one that said "youre the only girl i want. i'll wait forever"
well where are you now?
why are you with her?
(me)

Lets go back to the night when we were together
for the first time, I felt like you actually loved me
but now, youre just like the rest
boy... i loved you with everything in me </3
(me)

There's nothing more dangerous
than a bad boy with charm </3

There was this little part
of my heart saying,
"Hold on. It's not over yet."

Hold on to whatever you find, baby.
Hold on to whatever will get you through.

Cry all you want little girl.
Tears don't bring people back.

I never gave up on you, but you're
slowly pushing me in that direction.

For the first time I need somebody; I need you.

So tell me, was it fun to watch me fall apart?

You live. You learn.
You crash & burn.

I'll tell you
What matters
Bare feet in the summer
Open windows at midnight.

Well I saw you with your hands above your head
Spinning around, trying not to look down
But you did, and you fell, hard on the ground
Then you stumbled around for a good ten minutes
And I said I'd never seen anyone look so dumb before
And you laughed and said I still know how to turn you on though.

Sixteen without a purpose or direction, we don't owe anyone a fucking explanation. 

I'm dropping my insecurities to the floor.  
Dress around my waist, you'll take them to a new level 
entirely with the undone buckle of your belt.

I wish more than anything that I could go back in time and fix things. 
 I’d say the things I should have, take back the things I didn’t mean, 
and stop myself from ever letting things turn out this way.

and I'll never let this go
but I can't find the words to tell you
that now I feel like I don't know you
 
No more songs about you
After this one, I am done.

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update

i wanna run, but only far enough to make you miss me
i wanna take back all the shit that I have done
but I guess you were better off without me

my throat was swelling up now, and
starting to hurt from the ache.
you didn't understand. you never understood.

to put it plainly, i'm completely lost without you.
and maybe you're right, and i'm taking things too
seriously. but what about those things you said?
what about the things you said you meant?

cheers to another awkward moment.
things will never be the same...

If you don’t start putting yourself ahead of everyone else,

I’m afraid you’re gonna wake up one day and wonder what

could have been. I don’t want that for you.

Put yourself first sometimes.

-One Tree Hill

I don’t get many things right the first time.

In fact, I am told that a lot.

Now I know all the wrong turns, the stumbles and falls.

Brought me here. 

 
And when it’s over,

is it really over?
 
 
I'm sorry, but I'm just thinking of the right words to say. 



I know they don't sound the way I planned them to be. 

But if you'll wait around a while, I'll make you fall for me,

I promise, I promise you.
 
 
She’s got a lot of patience,

to still be waiting for him.
 
 
We’ll be miles apart,
i’ll keep you deep inside.
You’re always in my heart.
A new life to start, I may be leaving 
but you’re always in my heart.
 
 
i hear it. i hear every angry little word spit at me walking down the hall. 
every snicker behind the door. and i take it all to heart. 
but the difference between me and most girls is when it gets there, 
my heart tells me 'who cares?' and in that instant, all those words are gone.
 

i want that sweater lol
 
 
i look back every now and then to when we became so close,
a few months ago when everything seemed just right,
and the world seemed to be at peace.
because with your hand in mine, we could conquer anything,
and now we're left only to conquer eachother.
an idea i wish to discard, to leave behind and never go back.
 
 
I’ve never been anyone's first choice ever.
I’ve never been anyone's first choice for a best friend.
I’ve never been anyone's first choice for a girlfriend.
I’m always the second best, the backup choice.
I’m never anyone's first choice.
And I’m tired of it.
It hurts.
 
 
Lately people have been asking me 
if were still friends, and honestly I don't know. 
We barely talk anymore and so much 
has changed over the past few months. 
But I guess that's what happens 
when you grow up and grow apart.
 
 
 

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